I have been thinking about my challenge set by Hugo Black. I want to please him and I want to get something right.
I have as you all know shied away from posting images of myself I have been honest and straight forward about my experiences but I have not been honest about my images - and for that I am truly sorry. I will understand if you all hate me.
Mr Black has pushed me into a corner my needs and desires have made me promise something that means being honest about who and what I want to be. Some of you are wondering why I have been a little shy about posting images of myself - it's simple really fear, hate, fear a little more fear and just a bit more fear.
I have been treated rather horridly sometimes it has been my fault all the posts that are about my life are true and to be honest I have been scared off by my sister - who thinks I am mad and should never reveal as much as I have. I am also terrified that when you see the real me you will all be disappointed I know I am. My need to please Mr Black has forced me into doing this and I am really keen to be honest to him and you all because I do love you all I really do.
Yes I know I am very femm and yes I know when you see my boy mode pics you will all agree that as a guy I am quite femm and yes the hormones and the life path I follow adds to the overall femm look but I am terrified that by revealing myself I am laid bare - naked with no wear to hide....
Does this all make sense?
Is it worth it?
Will you all hate me?
Will you all forgive me?
Oh my god - hands shaking tears and blushing dry throat butterflies in my tummy.....
this is me in boy-ish mode please me kind and gentle...
This is one of my fave pictures en femm.
So with this I lay myself out to abuse and ridicule. All I ask you to remember is my fear and shame before you judge me. (Yes I know I hate my big feet)
This weekend my friend who is a semi pro photographer will be taking pictures of my attempt to answer Mr Blacks challenge.
Please be gentle....