I was sitting at home watching tv all night - I have not been out of the flat for almost 3 days I am very down at the mo and find I can not share anything of my thoughts I do not want to speak to anyone and I am running ideas and plans through my head - how am I going to pay for things in the next couple of months why am I not getting any interviews and worst of all I am not sure I want this life style anymore.
I can only express myself on this blog and I am close to tears I really am tired and I am babbling I am a little drunk I drunk a bottle of wine last night combined with my lack of sleep and utter fear for the future I find myself posting to past the time and to some extent talking to you all because it feels like the only thing I can control at the moment...
I want to be on some hidden tropical island where I can spend the day in a bikini and dressing for dinner meant wearing my lingerie hold ups and evening gloves.
Away from all this grey I want to have my own luxury beach villa and a maid to look after me.
Several men to make sure I am safe. But most of all real men to fuck me I want them to live like animals naked and kept in pens and I call them when I need servicing I want to be the queen I want everything and everyone to adore me worship me need me....
I want to wear a crown and my maids to use rose petals to scent my boudoir I want to be wealthy, stunning, and a complete bitch
I would fly around the world shopping
from my pvt jet to my private limo
My maids would model the lingerie and clothes I want to buy
I would select a man pet to bring with me so when I needed cock he would service me
I think I might be going a little crazy...
What is your most mad crazy desire be honest be truthful be transparent