some thoughts and ideas

I have posed this image before. I love it I soo wish to be her. She has totally given herself to him and the only thing missing is her cat tail.

I adore this idea I would love to have sexy tgirls and genetic girls around my home like ornaments I could use them at any time. Imaging the humiliation being treated like a side table does this make you more femm?

Is this the most perfect women ever?

I adore her face her hair, Her body is amazing her breasts are almost perfect her thin body is divine leading into her curvy hips and amazing legs - the under wear highlighting all these areas the thick band of those perfect thongs make me feel all giddy.

come to be eyes - with a skirt garter belt - I love love love this outfit.

Fear makes things much more intense - do you ladies agree?

Oh my I wish I was at this school

what a lovely little pony

I adore this image she is in control and the her slave is sooo much in need

A friend made a comment about cat walk models she said they all look like femm tall thin boys - this made me think most guys in fashion are gay perhaps that is why they prefer stick women to curvy ones?

Waiting for master - honestly darling which one would you be the maid or the master?

interesting question

What is the most humiliating thing that you have ever done and yet still been turned on?

getting married

One just for you lucky genetic girls. Is the ultimate in womenhood getting married? I know the real answer is having a child but we tgirls are a little well lets say under equipped.

So to re-ask the question fully - is the ultimate thing a women can do (that a tgirl can also emulate) is to be married - to be given away - I adore how that sounds.

I adore the whole structure the dressing up the special underware but most of all the transition the women makes it is soooo amazing - A women starts of in church as a virgin she is given away like a tool / property to another man whom promises to look after her because she is unable to look after herself.

Then the party and then the couple leave she changes clothes and becomes a sexy married attentive toy but the final transition she makes - she becomes a whore in the bedroom.

Now one for the tgirls tell me darlings what would be the ultimate wedding - the one you dream about?

The virginal sensual lace, girly and femm under wear

I adore little tiara's daddy's princes all over again. Dads how do you feel giving away your sweet little girl knowing shortly she will be on honeymoon on a beach somewhere with a cock in her mouth?

wedding sluts - some times even I WOULD SAY NO

A yummy lesbian wedding - well ok not really but it could

I love veils

Hold ups and garters

I so wish this girl is a real bride and the other two girls are the bridesmaids

Short Story - Being useful to the team

I adore sports. I love rugby but I am quite small and slow. No matter what I did, tried, experimented with the coach said no.

The guys on the team and the coach were all pretty cool about it. They respected me for trying and they knew I was eager to please and desperate to be part of the team to feel like I had helped us win.

After another unsuccessful tryout the coach asked me to meet him in his office. I got cleaned up and met him He said look hun your just not going to make it as a jock.

Your too femm too cute and far too precious. I blushed but I did not want to argue with him as I was desperate for their approval.

He continued I have an idea how you can help the team. There has been new research conducting in Japan and sports guys need to be released their stress and sexual gratification needs to be taken care of. The Japanese found that tgirls gave the top athletes the best release and after a night with a tgirl they were found to perform upto as much as 35% better.

The coach stood behind me and placed his hands on my shoulders now he spoke slowly and purposefully now he repeated you are a special person - very femm, very cute, very slim and most of all you even have a girls name. It was true everything the coached said I blushed and tears started to roll down my high cheek bones

Now Nikki way do you think you spend all your time here even though you, I we all know you will never ever make it as a sports guy.

I shrugged the coached smiled and said that is because you need to be near alpha males you are an alpha female and you desire them you need them.

The coach cleared his throat and in walked the female coach of the school.

Now he said go with Miss Hardy and do as she says.

I stood and nodded and followed Miss Hardy. We entered the female locker room and she turned and said. Now you fucking stupid fucking sissy faggot strip.

I slowly undressed

Do you know why tgirls work she snarled she walked around me as I undress she grabbed a handful of my femm pert ass and lowered her mouth to my ear and whispered - because you fag our jocks like to fuck girls but they worry about getting them pregnant, about being in a relationship with tgirls its no strings attached fun fucking.

She fingered my hole and smiled nice and tight the boys will love that. Now let me get a good look at you she smiled as she held my tiny cock and balls and said you are soooo a girl it is not funny. She said follow me and like a lost naked lamb I did.

I stood in Miss Hardy's office and she took out a syringe and bottle and injected me once in the in each ass cheek and then once in each arm and then handed me a bottle of water and a series of tablets to take. One by one I swallowed each pill.

She then handed me a pair of pink thongs, a small butt plug, a letter and a magazine. She told me to put on the thong and as if to give me no choice she picked up my male boxer shorts and rolled them up and put them into her bag.

She watched me slide the impossibly small panties up my legs and smiled at me as she watched me settle the string between my cheeks she leaned forward and patted me on the bottom and said well done just like a real girl

I smiled and blushed I then quickly dressed my little sissy clit was as hard it has ever been small but hard she laughed and sent me home.

I hid in my room and read the letter

It was simple Miss Hardy had typed out several points.

1. You will each night read through this female magazine you will learn from the stories how to please men you will think of cocks and you will wish you can suck on them

2. you will continue to take the tablets I give you and you will practice being femm the magazine has lots of tips.

3. you will report to me each day

4. do NOT play with yourself

5. use the butt plug on your self only

The last para was from the coach he said welcome to the team Nikki you will help us win against our enemy next weekend. I want you on the team bus.

The week past in a blur I was given more female hormones and further injections my body started to change to soften further and little a cup pert breasts were beginning to grow.

It was Saturday night and the team were eating their dinner I was prepping myself to be the fuck toy of each star athlete. First I would be fucked by the captain then the 2nd in command and so on. The coach said this would also make the players work harder so that they were not fucking me last.

I got a call from the coach Nikki please goto room 112 Leon is waiting.

I knocked on the door I was dressed as a cute cheerleader obvious yes but it excited me.

Leon shouted it is open I walked in and he was lying on his bed with just his t shirt on and nothing else his cock was huge I stripped down to my string panties and crawled onto the bed.

The training and hormones took over and I started to suck his cock like a whore

He moaned and pushed my head further down his cock.

I looked across the room and say a cute teen girl sucking a huge jock and I blushed my little clit dribbled a little pre cum and my nippled hardened

I held the monster like an ice cream cone and licked the top

wanking him, taking him deep into my throat

licking the tip then deep into my throat

Slowly and quickly I kept the pressure up knowing I had several other men to please this evening.

Finally my lust, eagerness and curiosity made me sit down hard on his spear I squealed like a girl and giggled and blushed.

I looked over my should and gasped at how amazing I looked with a cock sliding into me.

He pushed me onto my back and my first jock came on my tiny budding breasts I licked his cum and gasped at the sheer pleasure and lust I was feeling.

I left Leon snoring away and headed to Karls room, I giggled as the cum ran out of my abused asshole and ran down my thigh I felt such a whore and so much part of the team.

Short Story - Time to grow up

Yes I was stunning, I could pass in most situations and I knew it.

It really annoyed my Tgirlfriends and genetic girlfriends I used to tease them all about how sexy and girlie I was.

I would tease guys and dress up looking ever so - well you know giggle. One evening I was out with some friends and as always I was perfect dressed in the most perfect black cotton thong and matching padded bra to give that little bit extra up top.

My cute little wool pleated skirt and the most cute tight little wool cardigan top. To finish of the look I wore my big glasses and my black flat shoes.

I was easily the best looking girl in the bar we chatted and I flirted finally the girls were sick of my vanilla behaviour.

Steph almost pulled my hair and arm as she dragged me into the ladies. NOW TABBY she almost snarled we are all a little bit bored of this bad girl - good girl act. NOW GROW UP AND GO GET FUCKED.

I blushed and giggle nervously...but....but...

WHAT she spat back

I am well I don't know what to do.

Steph calmed down and smiled

hun look at you

she stepped to the side and we both stared at my reflection

hun you have nothing to worry about....

We left the bathroom and headed back to our group. Shortly after we got back a rather large powerful looking guy strolled up to our group.

Hey he said to me

Hey I smiled back

how about a drink with me

I smiled and nodded he held out his hand and I took it

We drank a few and then he whispered into my ear hun lets go back to mine I wanna fuck you I could feel him lusting after me and this got me hot I oozed sex

We arrived at his home and I stood by his desk in his den smiling and laughing at his jokes.

He sat down on the couch and took out his cock and stroked it

I blushed and licked my lips

He laughed and worked his cock faster and growled does my little cunt like this

I nodded pursed my lips and started to take off my cardigan

I turned my back to him and slid off my skirt I felt amazing so girly so alive so fucking hot

He groaned and said that he was going to fuck me silly

I whispered please sir...

I slid off my bra and held my breasts and pinched my nipples.

I looked deep into his eyes and whispered sir, fuck me make me yours make me a women

He stood up and pulled at my thong and pushed me onto the desk I lifted my knee and placed it onto the desk widened my stance to show my willingness and pushed my pert sissy faggot ass high into the air.

I felt his hot fat cock head push into my ass cheek and then his hard hot hands clasp me around the waist.

He held me in place and then with one swift jerk of his hips impaled me I squealed a little and gasped as he slid into me.

I expected pain but nothing but pleasure washed over me. My eyes rolled back as he held my balls tightly and squeezed hard at the same time he pounded into me

I gripped the desk and let out a guttural moan and started to cum not like a man but like a girl my sissy clit was still soft and yet somehow I was cuming more like taking a weak slow pee and then he hit my g spot and I screamed and passed out.

Summer hols part 2

Just to quickly recap:

Sir I...

Tabby tell me and make sure you are honest...

I start to cry...

Sir there are several and they change sir

tell me them all NOW

Yes sir....

Sir pls...

TABBY LAST CHANCE

Sir....

Click.....

He put the phone down and I cried myself to sleep....

The next day I sat by the phone hoping pleading with it to ring... Minutes turned to hours... Still nothing. I had a lot of time to think during that day. I have come to terms with some of my own issues and expectations.

I always expect the best in people and I know this is a mixture of stupidity, naivety and a desperate need to be liked.

Knowing these things and adding these things to my chosen lifestyle I find myself constantly in an internal battle.

I have done some things just to please someone so they could be my friend which I am so ashamed of yet desire more of the same.

Finally I called I could not wait any longer. I called him and begged his forgiveness he listened patiently as I blurted out my pathetic words, begging, pleading him to let me continue.

I finally ran out of steam and he then spoke quietly...

He started to tell me that he (I have skirted over the details to protect their identity. They have given me permission to tell the story but not to reveal who they are.) was something big in banking and his wife well she liked to shop and make his life hell. They lived in St Albans but he had a luxury apartment in town for working late.

I was shocked he was a master how can his wife make his life hell???? In my inquisitive way I asked him this question

He laughed and replied that my naivety and lack of understanding was 'cute'

Well time whizzed past and over the coming weeks I continued to chat to both my master and mistress. To my utter shame their games become everything I ignored all other inputs I was totally theirs and needed to prove to them that I was and that I could be what they wanted.

They would set me tasks and laugh at my eagerness to comply. In some respects this makes me more womanly than most women. My desire to please is almost so over whelming and the need to be liked makes me very vulnerable I know this and yet I keep failing into the same trap.

My training started gently!

My Mistress would call me and chat to me she would tell me about our wonderful shopping trips she asked me to send her a picture I had taken just for her and express in detail what I was wearing while explaining who this wonderful girl was.

She asked me to send the picture through then call her and describe myself and explore my femmy-ness as she called it.

They had me on a very strict diet - I was to eat 2 small pieces of fruit in the morning and a small salad with no dressing for lunch. 10 glasses of water through out the day and nothing else. If I was weak she would allow me a rice biscuit. I was not exactly large (size 10 - 12) but within a few weeks I was thinner an 8 - 10.

I was made to do yoga (something I do lots of anyway) and was sent videos of girls walking so that I could match them.

Mistress told me she was ready for the picture of the new Tabby - It took me three days to get an image I was happy with.

As promised I called my Mistress and described what I was wearing, my feelings and my needs.

Good Morning Tabby

Good morning Mistress

Oh Tabby your picture is wonderful your sooo cute.

Giggle thank you Miss as you have asked of me Mistress. I am totally smooth. I have used a plain unscented cream all over to keep my skin soft.

I am wearing a pair of black lace Hanky Panky Lace Thong. I adore the way it sits on my hips and how the string splits my asspussy I love the feeling a thong gives me it makes me feel dirty. The lace is soo girly and the front allows me to hide my sissy clit. (not that I have much to hide)

To make sure I have shape I then selected a Yummie Tummie Rhianna Control Corset. I love how it shapes me and holds me tight.

I love earings Miss I know big hoops are slutty but I adore them and my absolute faves are these - they are beaded hoop earrings by Juicy. The shoes (I adore heels) are from Ted Baker a 4 and half inch heel with a black rose and gold interior in a 7 which I adore.

The dress was a real issue as I wanted to wear this dress (see below) but just could not get it to look well look femm enough Miss. So I potted for the dress you can see in the image. I purchased the dress from Asos and I think it works well on my shape.

Good girl Tabby. Are you keeping to your diet?

Yes Miss.

Good Girl. Now call me again in one week. We can then begin your training fully. Oh and my husband will be calling you tomorrow at 9pm do be a good girl and try to please him.

Yes Miss I will do my best. Please tell my Master I will please him.

She then hung up and true to her word my inbox had a link to a download file.

There were also a number of images which all had a simple task assigned to them.

This image simply said enjoy - I printed it out and would play with my clit until utter pleasure would wash over me.

Part 3 coming soon

Summer Hols - Part 1

Hi ladies,

This post is going to help me set the scene. What scene I hear you all ask. Giggling into your white wine and being ever so bitchy...yawn another story, thought from Tabby will that girl ever shut up and just open her legs and get fucked liked the rest of us.

I have finally caught up with my diary entries and would like to update you all on the mad goings on that is my life.

What I did over my summer hols. Now I know I have been a bit of a slut in the past and have waned and waxed between being some mad cock sucking bitch to almost being a nun but hey a girl can change her mind can't she?

This email is to help readers understand how I got chatting to the couple whom eventually invited me to their home and allowed / forced / helped / everything and nothing to explore what it means not only to be a tgirl but to be Tabitha Jones.

For the first time I felt like I was a real person. Yes they humiliated me and I adored it yes they abused me and to my shame I adored it but I left feeling stronger more whole somehow.

How I met my Master and Mistress

I was sent some images with a simple message. It simply said Tabby we want to help you discover you....

Hang on ladies before you mock me for being an easy catch the images were very well selected and well thought out and this caught my eye.

They felt grown up and real yes I know there not real girls and all the shots are staged but they felt sooo right for me.

The image below plus the message and a mobile number. Like a frightened deer I called the number putting on my best femm voice, fear making me feel dizzy.

Yes answered a stern voice

Hi sir, my name is Tabby.

Yes what is it Tabby

I was a little taken aback they had got in touch with me they had given me their number why was he being funny? I ummed

Well girl what is it

Sir i finally replied I got your email and felt compelled to call.

Good, why did you feel you had to call tell me GIRL - his voiced lacked any patience and I

quickly responded The images sir

Ahh good ok tell me what you like about each one take your time my little pet.

My clit twitched and I blushed

I adore her body sir I want to look like that I love her strength

go on Tabby tell me everything

I love her hair sir and most of all her lips.

good now on to the next image my little tgirl slut

I giggle like a silly school girl and blushed twice as brightly

Sir I just simply adore the femm-ness of this image it is almost perfect and I sooo

wish it was me. She is not as sexy as the first girl but she is sooo darling.

Do you like those clothes girl

Yes sir

Tell me the TRUTH TABBY his voice was hard are you playing with you clit

I looked down and was stunned my hand was gently stroking my clit and fingering my asspussy I had not noticed this at all. I ummmed

Well you fucking bitch are you.

Yes sir

Good now continue but DO NOT CUM is that clear

Yes sir I whispered

He laughed.

I blushed

Oh and sir I adore her heels

Tell me do you like to be spanked

Yes sir I think so a little sir

Do you like this picture

Oh yes sir very much she is stunning. Amazing figure and all that rubber / pvc / leather makes me sooo yummy sir

I love the whip too.

Do you think women should be in control Tabby

No sir men should then women sir then tgirls

What is the purpose of a tgirl why should they exist my little pet

Sir I think they should simply to serve sir. Some people are simply more sexual and have more needs than others and they can become tgirls sir.

Is that why you think tgirls exist Tabby

that and their need to change gender sir - for the clothes, the sex, the attention - perhaps that what it means to be a women sir.

Expand on that thought

Yes sir well as I see it women are designed to be penetrated the most dom of women always have a dom male and if they are gay they still have their partners penetrate them.I see penetration as weakness only real men fuck everyone else gets fucked sir

Good girl

How does this make you feel Tabby

Sexy, turned on and hot but most of all sir I am envious of her

Why his voice was sweet and soft now

Because I want what she has sir

Lets move on Tabby darling I have so many girls to train - He seemed bored with me

Sir have I upset you - almost in tears - I hated myself for caring what this stranger thought of me and yet I needed his approval

Stop it GIRL and tell continue

Yes sir

I adore the image sir I would love to be a bubbly blonde or a severe brunette. I find this fascinating sir. Why is the same women perceived so differently if she changes her hair colour?

If she is dark haired she is serious and if she is blonde she is silly.

I find this another example of women being the vessel and their need to play different roles to attract the type of man they want.

Expand on that Tabby

Yes sir. When a women is younger she explores her sexuality and sleeps with various men she dyes her hair blonde to create the illusion she is wild, bubbly and silly - this ties into the men she is looking for at that time of her life. Her make up, clothes and walk is also a reflection of this.

When she is looking to settle down and be with a single man - she darkens her hair, her makeup and her clothes she becomes more elegant and creates a new persona.

I love this about being femm you can re-invent yourself everyday.

Tabby darling you are soo naive and yet compelling

Sir?

Just continue my little pet.

Sir I am feeling very excited

Darling are you near to cuming

Yes sir

IF YOU CUM YOU FUCKING WHORE I WILL FUCK YOU TILL YOU BLEED is that clear

His sudden anger and then sweetness through me and my clit withered, partly to please him and not to cum and partly from fear I somehow knew he would literally fuck me till I bled.

Now girl are you under control

I almost whispered back in fear - yes sir.

What role do you think a women should have - should she work?

Yes sir a women should have one of these careers only sir and she should the moment she has moved in and is living with her partner she should stop working and serve him totally.

What careers should she have

Well sir one of these

1. Secretary (she should then marry her boss when her boss tires of her she should smile and let him have a younger girl - she should then grow old serving him)

2. Air Hostess - only for the younger girl and a girl that likes to fuck

3. Librarian - older women

4. Maid - any age but should focus on serving her man

Tabby darling you are perfect do tell sir which career path is for you?

Well sir I love the idea of being an air hostess and Secretary

Sir this image is amazing I am sooo enticed by her. Why do men love the idea of schoolgirls and why do tgirls love it more?

Tell me why you like her body

Yes sir - her breasts are large but not hanging they are still pert. She is slim and her tummy is taught - I love her stance which exudes sexiness and the flare of her hip. I love the trick of wearing short hold ups to create the effect of longer legs.

Her skirt is to die for and l love her hand holding the hem. I love heels and not platforms they are a little slutty for me. Oh and I adore the tie. Giggle

Are you still playing with your self Tabby

Sort of sir I like to play with my sissyclit like a real clit. It is soo tiny even when hard that I can get away with doing so. I also have my hands free ear piece on so I can finger my asspussy.

I love to tease it with my vibrator.

Good girl. Now Tabby don't cum otherwise I will be upset.

Yes sir I understand sir.

Tell me what you think of these

Ohh sir they are soo yummy I think they are by Jean Paul Gutiuer for La Perla Sir.

Ohh my I adore the femm stern severe look sir sooo tgirl - I am convinced Jean Paul used to cross dress.

Now Tabby I have sent you through several very femm images of dresses, bridal hair bands, etc. Just tell me in 1 sentance why you like or dont like them

Yes sir I will try...

I love, adore, need them to be whole to be me

Good girl - I have been taking notes now I want you to tell me your deepest hidden most shamefull fantasy

Sir I...

Tabby tell me and make sure you are honest...

I start to cry...

Sir there are several and they change sir

tell me them all NOW

Yes sir....

Sir pls...

TABBY LAST CHANCE

Sir....

Click.....

He put the phone down and I cried myself to sleep....