Being Femm

A little update

2012-01-30T22:59:00.000Z

Where have you been?
Tabby what is wrong?
Babe are you ok?
Sweetheart what is going on?
Where are you?
Has something happend?

Thank you all for your support and concerns.

In answer to all my darling friends, fans and concerned parties...

I have been no-where
Everything is wrong
No I am not ok
I have upset a few people and have really lost my way
At home hiding
Yes something awful

I really come close to never posting again. I upset someone I truly admire. She rightly will never speak to me again even though I have offered her everything short of begging in Twitter to try to make things right. I realised that I will forever be on the outskirts of society. Caught between my desperate need to be female and my more base and humiliating shameful desires.

My curse really is simple I can pass as a women perhaps not under close scrutiny but in passing you would not look twice at a plain skinny slightly taller than average women. This means two things I don't hide in the closet like many of my kind - fat, hairy TV's desperately wanking off in their wives panties.

No I was lucky I felt my need to dress early and was born with a very femm look.

The picture below was taken late on in my teens and as you can see even in 'boy form' I am not exactly macho.

2011-12-12T07:10:00.001Z

I feel awful. I have had such a bad cold - sniff I am almost bursting into tears.
Feel sooo horrid and icky.

Thank you all

2011-12-06T07:55:00.001Z

Thank you all I have 800 followers. Oh to be so popular in real life giggle. As I lie in bed feeling terrible with Tgirl flu. Trying to keep up with emails and wishing I could go shopping I found this old-ish picture.

It captures perfectly how I feel. A little sad, a little lonely but knowing there is something wonderful just around the corner

Love to you all my faithful 800 (blushing) xxx

2011-12-04T17:54:00.001Z

My most fave blogs

obviously Sir's is at the top of the list a great read for you gurls out there;
http://theworldofhugoblack.blogspot.com

Everything about this blog is perfect if this girl could be any more on trend she would be the trend. She is stunning, sassy and ever so sexy - gurls we have a lot to learn
http://www.bibleforfashion.com/

Perhaps one of the most lovely, fun and cute as a button bloggers in the UK. Love her and her blog
http://www.stylestreetstalker.com/

Money, sex, drugs and rock and roll - she hot the blog is hotter gurls tune in....
http://www.the-luxury-marionette.com/

so hot right now - giggle
http://atlantic-pacific.blogspot.com/

For those of you that follow my blog you will know how much I admire and sooo wish I could be like her she is soooo sexy, intelligent and just the right side of posh bitch (in the nicest possible way). Gurls we should try to be more like her.
http://www.thelondoner.me/

One of the best Lingerie blogs ever
http://www.petite-coquette.co.uk/

Possibly my most fave underwear brand
http://www.fredandginger.com/

Enjoy ladies xxx

What will you be wearing?

2011-10-28T12:54:00.001+01:00

Love my friends twitter comment - blushing how true girls how true. Tell me what you will be wearing. I would love to know.

2011-10-28T00:07:00.001+01:00

Ask me anything

2011-10-04T07:51:00.001+01:00

I have been thinking a lot about what, who and where I want to be. Lots of things have changed and I need to make some decisions. So one of my first acts is to respond openly and honestly to any comments, questions thoughts, ideas and requests.

Ladies and gentlemen ask away....

Love love love her

2011-09-22T08:31:00.002+01:00

What a stunning girl http://www.youtube.com/user/GregoryGORGEOUS

Love her style, love her look and love her

Sometimes it is worth it

2011-09-18T15:41:00.000+01:00

I love their yogurts, milks and desserts. Since I stopped using diary products my shape has gotten better I feel healthier and I have lost weight. I love this new video and the girl about 35 seconds in is truly stunning watch and enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/alprotv#p/u/4/W8xkbMN1K-k

P.S. Several new posts coming soon I promise.

xxx

A defining moment

2011-08-24T07:55:00.000+01:00

Several days ago I received an email from a couple. I had no idea how to respond to their request and mulled over my feelings, the potential harm I may cause by responding and what my true feelings were.

They emailed me again with the original request and a plea for me to respond.

Again I wondered what I should do and finally having spoken to a very authoritative gentlemen I have recently met (more on him later) I decided to email the couple back.

I asked them if I could respond via my blog and that I would spare their blushes by using their first names only. I also asked permission to post their email on my blog.

They agreed.

Dear Tabby,

My name is Lisa and I am married to David. We are both in our early 30's we live in London both work in the City for a well known Re-Insurance company. I am in marketing I work directly for the marketing manager.

David works in the prediction part of the business he has a very stressful job. He and his team have to work out the insurance ratios. Some nights he is almost in tears as he has a lot of responsibility and does not cope well with it from time to time.

We both like to cycle and spend Saturday's playing tennis. We both love to shop and have a small circle or very good friends. I am rambling now because I am not sure what to say. I am hurt, upset and very angry.

Several days ago David worked from home and I went in as usual. I got to the station and was half way in to work when I decided to go back home. I have no idea why I did this. I got off the tube and walked across the platform and headed waited for the train back.

I got back to my tube station (please note I have removed a little bit of Lisa's description as it would place her at a location and station and I wanted to keep her identity a secret). I walked home slowly and stopped at the flower stall on the corner and purchased a few roses I also picked up some fresh pastries and headed home.

I got in and placed my shopping in the kitchen and walked into our bedroom to take off my work clothes and shoes and on the bed was my husband dressed in my lingerie, made up like a slut with a vibrator in hand, a picture of you and his cock at full mast.

I screamed.

He screamed

I ran out of the flat

I later learnt he got up and changed cleaned himself and waited for me in tears on the sofa

I just walked my phone kept ringing I did not look to see who it was

I got back to the flat about 4 hours later and found him sobbing in the corner. I hugged him and we made coffee and sat down to chat.

He explained he was not gay and loved women he loved their clothes, their movement, the idea of being a femm. He was envious of how a women could let go and be taken care of not to have to make decision he was tired and upset and could not explain fully but he managed to express his desires and needs but most of all his fear of taking charge he had to do it everyday at work and just wanted someone else to carry the load and when he became Sindy he did not have to take any responsibility.

I asked him who the girl was in the picture and he showed me your blog. I have spent almost 2 days reading it and I don't know if I should hate you, feel sorry for you or admire you.

I do feel you owe me something - what I ask from you is an explanation of David and Sindy - I want to know what to do, should I support this need of his?

Kind regards

Lisa

Once I had read the email all I could say was WOW. There are guys out there wanking over me! Giggle Blush I wonder what they think of when they cum on my picture? Then my common sense kicked in and my pity for David and Lisa situation.

What should I say or do. I must admit to almost crying myself to sleep from a mixture of shame, fear and sympathy. I woke several times during that night and had to really think about what I was feeling. Curiosity, a sense of purpose for the first time in years but why? Sympathy anger fear washed over me I just was not sure what I could or could not say - for god sake someones marriage depended on ME.

I called my new friend it was 3:30am and I just knew he would be ok with it. He answered yes Tabby his deep voice softly spoken sent a little shiver through me. (A quick diversion from David and Lisa - Several days ago I met through a photographer friend of mine a guy who runs a Digital Start Up. He is so commanding, well dressed and subtle - nothing about him screams look at me but the quality of everything he does, wears etc. As an example he has Trickers shoes, Sunspel underwear, Gieves suits and a Patek Philippe watch understated quality. He is measured and self assured and calm. I was sooo drawn to him. I felt myself just letting go we chatted over coffee and I showed him my blog on his iPad - he just laughed and said what a wonder head I must have. We chatted a little more and then went to have a meal we ended up in Shoreditch House we had a few drinks and then he put me in a cab kissed me good night and said he would call. He did and we have been chatting I like him so much. Back to my call and David and Lisa)

I calmed myself and asked him if I could send the email on he said ok. I heard him getting out of bed and heard another voice - I asked him who it was. He replied some girl I picked up he handed the phone to her and she said hi, I said hi and blushed he took the phone from her and said I have my iPad have you sent the email I said yes.

Pause - silence I could her him telling the girl to be quite and to go to sleep

Ok I have just been through the email what do you want to do.

Nothing was my response

Ok do nothing he responded

But...I stammered

Look Tabby he said softly if you respond at all you need to be measured and controlled

But I said it would be unfair of me not to be honest and tell Lisa the truth about who David potentially is

Yes I agree but you don't know him or his situation.

Ok was all I could say I felt like a school girl being told off I blushed and said thank you

He said look I am busy over the next few days perhaps we can meet to chat things through on Thursday evening.

Ok.

I put the phone down and pouted - who was that bitch in bed with him...

We spoke and he simply told me to do what I felt was right. By this time Lisa had emailed me again. I emailed her back and asked permission to respond via the blog. She agreed.

Girls can you all share your experiences I really want to be as complete for Lisa as possible.

I thought long and hard about how to respond and what to say - what does Lisa know about tgirls, pre and post op, shemales, cross dressers sissies and other gurl types. I decided to start from the beginning and Lisa can take from this post what she needs.

Starting with the most relevant - David or in his case Sindy sounds like a Cross Dresser. There are 1,000's of guys who cross dress some for sexual reasons others because they are on a journey to discovering they are gay and femm or like me they move to being a pre op Tgirl.

Most cross dresses never leave the bedroom they are not convincing and have several fantasies these are the most common.

Schoolgirl, PA or secretary, Maid, Slave, Air hostess and Nurses. For most cross dressers the clothes, uniforms and role playing play a huge role, pretending to be a bride or slave is very common, although most cross dressers do have strong fantasies about being taken by a man or used by a women wearing a strapon some also do dream about being used by a tgirl or shemale they are not normally fully gay think of them as Bi and they have managed to work into their little sissy head that when dressed they can dream about sucking a cock and feel it is ok as they are girls. They also do have strong lesbian fantasies and many cross dressers believe their female alter ego is Bi or a lesbian they can not imagine being gay as a man or dressed as one.

Most cross dressers order uniforms and clothing from stores like Ann Summers. The clothing is much more sexualised and aimed at role playing rather than being real copies of female clothing.

They imagine themselves dressed and in the role

Lingerie also play a huge role and this is possibly the first entry point for most cross dressers like David an older sisters' lacy knickers and bra - mums naughty babydoll. Corsets seem to send those silly cross dressers in to such a tiz

Anything femm girly or slightly naughty - gloves and details like hold ups or stockings again send them into a spin. They imagine wearing the clothes a guy would imagine a girl thinks is sexy.

They love accessories and collars / chokers / lace and silk.

It is worth pointing out that some girls take a slight turn in the road and enter a little explored arena of cross dressing - I know a few girls that have explored this area they tend to be much more 'nerdy' and I have found that in their male role they tend to be in either very technical or very creative roles.

Sometimes refer to in the main stream as cos play (costume play) you can see instantly why it appeals to cross dressers and to some extent tgirls - you could argue that cross dressing is a form of cos play.

There is one major distinction cross dressers do this for sexual reasons.

Princess Leah is always popular as is supergirl type costumes

Some girls fixate on a particular costume or character and imagine that person as a female version or somehow that individual has been transformed into a female version of the original. For some reason side kicks seem to be popular for example Robin from Batman and Robin.

Main characters are also popular, Superman, Batman are always fantasied to be transformed and many girls will write fictional stories about these characters

My first fictional crush was the normal geek type crush with Princess Leah and ever since I do admit to looking for good examples of the costume. Blush.

Man are sooo sad really - and somehow cross dressers tgirls and shemales may be the extreme versions of femininity but deep down we are sooo like men - perhaps that is why we have such a difficult time coming to terms with who and what we are.

Other girls and I am convinced David's Sindy is one fixate on items of clothing or elements of dressing for example I adore knickers with skirts I love them I have no idea why just that I love them and can not pass up purchasing a new one.

Some girls have a thing for blindfolds, silk, stockings, headband, ribbons a particular cut of clothing etc, It really does pay to find out what your little Sindy likes, use it to control her.

Many girls move on to 'Bridal role playing' I know many men who have been away to hotels at the weekend and have pretended to be a bride they have paid a small fortune to stay at a hotel and have their turn as a bride other cross dressers will have also paid to attend along with genetic female staff.

A friend who is a very convincing cross dressers has two holidays a year both of which are spent at a hotel for cross dressers he serves there as a hotel maid. I have been myself (that is where I met the cross dresser Sally) I stayed and dressed as a PA to the hotel manager and Sally cleaned my room - we made love like to girls and it was so intense and so real female partners are also allowed and can also join in the role play. Sindy will adore it. While she is away I recommend you play.

They even run courses - I know two excellent private Hotel / BB's where they run courses for cross dresses I highly recommend them as they will speed up Sindy's development but also her ability to dress and be femm in front of others and her eventual use by a man.

Course 1 is know as the Bride and he Matron of Honour

You are paired at the start of the course to another cross dresser you then are separated and cleaned prepped and then put back in a twin room. The course lasts for 6 days and it is split in two the first three days you are the bride and your room mate is the matron of honour and then you reverse the roles.

Most girls make love for the first time to another cross dresser and this is the time Sindy will fully awaken or stay as a cross dresser. Most girls move on and from that moment on they want the real experience from that moment being fucked and used by a man is their goal they might not admit it they might be ashamed of it but they long for it.

The course is full of stimulants both natural and man made - White wine is in abundance, the genetic girls are sooo encouraging everyone is ultra nervous so is soo nice and complementary the days are long the lingerie and costumes are divine - no on is forced to but you just can not help yourself you avoid masturbation as you are in a shared room and with all the stimulus and nervous, anxious energy you are ready to explode by the 2nd night.

As the bride you are dressed and as matron of honour you help the bride it is intoxicating for the poor little cross dresser for many it is the first time with very realistic breast forms and wigs this really does make the girls swoon

You have fittings for the dress you choose from a selection

You pamper each other, help each other dress

It is an amazing few days.

The second course is only recommended to those that have completed the first.

You are school girl in a prep school the rooms are very much like dorm rooms each room has 4 girls. Each girl has been screened and also has been on the first course. The girls take pride in their looks and are starting to get very convincing.

The course is run over 5 days with the optional weekend stay. Most girls who have not booked the weekend stay change their minds and book it my the 3rd or 4th day.

On arrival all the boys are sent to a large room told to strip and their clothes and bags are taken from them the most the hotel can take is 20 girls so 5 groups of four girls. You stand in the room naked and then your name is called (female name) and as you step forward you are given your clothes for the next few days each girl has already filled in the forms so the clothes fit as do the shoes. You are then sent to your room and told to be ready within 2 hours as there will be an inspection. The groups are pitted against each other and the winning group gets extra privileges the girls try very hard - peer pressure is part of the process - failing a task means the entire group is demerited and therefore the girls keep each other in check. Each group is given the same uniform but in a different colour this again is meant to re-enforce your belonging to a your group.

Most girls arrive clean and ready to en femm so their transformation is quick they stand to attention as the Head Mistress checks each room.

You are called forward and told to tell the girls in your group your real name and honestly about your life if you are married etc. This creates a bond and most girls burst into tears it is a very powerful moment and the girls remain friends for a very long time after this course.

One girl is always singled out and this is done by handing a note to the other three she is then picked on a little and the group's captain is allowed to be a bit of a bully. Yes all girls must wear wigs or style their hair en femm and breast forms.

The ultimate goal is to suck a cock by the end of the 5th day and believe me Lisa they will have Sindy begging for cock like a slut.

From this stage they develop into soft core versions or fetish wear and bondage the sub cross dressers begins to imagine his master or mistress more and the not so sub (remember all cross dressers are sub to genetic females and males) imagine tight skirts corsetry and being in charge of other girls.

The clothing, makeup etc becomes more sophisticated and their needs deepen their shame is heighten when they cum and that humiliation for many is also a turn on and paradoxically a turn off also.

The act of simply dressing now has also become sexual for them and they luxuriate in the process. Lisa darling this is where I believe your David is at. Sindy has reached a level of maturity that will allow you to manipulate her.

Many girls at this stage and I am positive Sindy (David) is one such girl, develop a fantasy person they wish they could be sometimes it is an old girlfriend or neighbour but mostly it is a famous person a sexual icon who is growing into a diva you can test this theory by 4 simple questions:

1. Call her a girl and refer to her in a conversation as female and watch her blush and turn femm before your eyes her movements and manner will give her away

2. Ask her to select an outfit from your clothing that she finds sexy the entire outfit - I will bet she selects a very femm but sophisticated outfit - she has grown up a little

3. My point above - ask her which famous girl she adores and why

4. Ask her does she want a man does she crave a man - she might let things slip and admit to having been with a man - how re-act is important smile and giggle and call her a slut and ask her to tell you all about it in detail was she dressed as her gently.

Cross dressers and to some extent sissies and tgirls will focus on a girl that is recently becoming a women Kate is an excellent example she is recently married becoming a women dressing well and in the lime light. Someone like Emma is also of interest as she is growing up and gurls (gurls = a generic term for cross dressers, tgirls etc) discovering her womenhood.

Ok I have embarrassed poor Sindy a lot so far my turn to blush - my thing when I cross dressed was always an airhostess I dreamed of fucking and sucking my way around the world.

Ok the next stage Sindy will develop and do note Lisa you can control her development and direction. But if you leave her to develop she will look for authenticity in her clothing and roles - but they are always ultra versions of the females they are trying to emulate - the skirts are tighter, blouses more open, heels higher etc. Imagine the ultimate PA or secretary. Cross dressers love the attention the detail in dressing and role playing this idea. Sindy will have and make no mistake this has happened.

She has dressed as a secretary. Then she has fought the urger to play with herself. She has cleaned the house and then pretended to do paperwork while fighting her sissy clit (cross dresser tgirl slang for their cocks) and her blushes - finally she will have given up and that dildo, vibrator you have hidden he would have fucked himself silly with until he came - he would then lick his hand clean of his cum and then undress in a shamed hurry - blushing and cursing himself. - Sindy for the moment is gone locked behind a wall of shame. The need to look like this is a powerful wrecking ball and his shame is short lived...

The classic next step is wonderful to watch unfold - I do implore you Lisa to get much more involved at this stage. The girls create elaborate stories positioning themselves within a real but extreme situation which inevitably ends when they are taken by a man or forced to suck a cock. They usually cum and then run around the house trying to hide the evidence and then their shame kicks in. Now Lisa darling I would use this shame to manage David and then abuse Sindy. You can create all sorts of fun for yourself. Imagine having your own live in maid to bathe you. Or to cook and serve you at the weekend, your only sacrifice watching your husband en-femm and unless you buy him knickers yours being stretch.

If you can put up with the humiliation of your husband then go girl it will be a lot of fun. You can tease him into doing anything a little sissy milking, dress him a little, flirt with him and he will do anything - even watch you being pummelled by a real man he will even suck your lovers cock if you take David in hand and grow your little sissy into a women.

Moving on...Many cross dressers, sissies and tgirls love the idea of a master or mistress

Most girls like David and myself imagine scenarios like this. We all silly men that we are imagine every girl has had a lesbian relationship and we would die to know what you all talk about. Lots of more serious cross dressers and Sindy sounds like one and tgirls are desperate to experience the stages of womenhood. They long to experience the various stages of growing up as a girl, friendships, shopping, dating, chatting with friends, makeup, fashion everything they want to absorb a lifetime of female emotions and experience each time they become their female alter ego.

This is a potential issue for you, unless ofcourse you want to turn David into Sissy Sindy. Some cross dressers get a little stuck in little girl mode / school girl mode some even regress further.

they dream about pink frills and ankle socks

This can be frustrating you really do not want a sissy they are the lowest form of cross dresser and although connected to school girl look they do tend to be frustrating because they have regressed.

It is not much fun having to change his nappy is it?

Slowly develop her again and make sure you tease her with sexy undies and sensual clothing but only if she is willing to grow up.

Sindy will now be back at the school girl stage but she will be different and this can be exploited she will want to be a particular type of school girl. The uniform will mater her behaviour will change as she adopts the new Sindy into herself she will become more girlie and femm she will start to act like a teenage girl

She may even develop an attitude this needs to be spanked out of her quickly.

She will need to understand you are in charge. Dress in his clothing and put her over your knee and teach her a lesson. Several techniques will work use them all keep her guessing and most of all do enjoy yourself.

I do think a combination of spanking as a school girl and shaming her and also

forcing her to explore her cos play and role play tendencies make her your little pet kitten. Refer to her as a kitten or cute or pet. Make her eat out of a bowl in the floor keep her naked and collared with a lead this really does work. You will notice she will have almost a permeant erection - ignore it - she will start to rub her sissy clit on everything just spank her or a cold soup spoon in hand a gently whack on the end of her sissy clit will soon see it return to its pathetic flaccid state.

Make sure you handle her roughly and switch between being loving and being dom. Do not explain your reasons simply make sure she does what you tell her at all times. Sometimes I recommend you make her pose like a prized bred animal. Inspect her make her behave like a puppy or kitten.

Make sure you are always in control. Punish her often.

Leave her tied up for a while and make sure you return untie her and are gentle and loving and then demand she hands you her lead

Start to demand she wear a variety of accessories make her feel more like an animal a pet. If she refuses then milk her on all fours let her cum on your hand and then make her lick it clean make her purr while she is doing this.

From this stage you can pretty much do anything you wish she will beg you to let her cum so use this power explore your fetishes and ideas if you want a kitty cat then dress her and yourself and make her wear a tail push her limits

Sometimes join in other times remain aloof you must always be in control and in charge.

Dress her sometimes and lead her around the house on all fours she will break soon

Surprise her one day by telling her you have booked a 5 star hotel room and show her a suitcase full of lingerie and tell her when you both get there you will be spending the whole weekend dressed as lesbian lovers. Tell her for the next 5 days there will be no sex or masturbation or the weekend is canceled.

When you arrive strip him and then dress as a dom and wear a strap on the whole weekend and make him suck you while you fuck his ass pussy silly.

Have fun with Sindy now make her scrub the floor as a scullery maid - keep telling her this is what it means to be a women

Make her clean in her underwear make her wear breast forms compliment her on her femm figure and keep her in a heighten state of arousal.

Dom her - keep her guessing

The next stage is crucial dress Sindy make her beautiful and then complain while you both lie in bed moan and purr about needing a cock a fat thick hard cock. Tell her to strip and to take you...

As she enters you lie there and do not move or make a sound - The tell her to get off get out of bed and
apply a chastity device to her sissy clit and then attach a strap on tell her that she is not a man anymore and that you need more cock ask her to fuck you know with the strap on.

Let Sindy play for a little bit and then again get out of bed tell her it is not working

Dress her and then put on the strap on and fuck her mouth and asspussy humiliate her convince her that she can not please you sexually anymore.

From here you can spend several days training her as your maid.

Make sure you are always Dom do not let her see any soft side anything she can cling to for hope.

Now comes the difficult bit convince her you want to make love to a threesome she is your lesbian lover and you want another male submissive cross dresser - make it fun let her select someone from the online forums play a little.

Make sure you are Dom play with your new sissy both en femm and the new girl as a male. Make sure Sindy is always enfemm for these little get togethers

Sometimes let the new girl dress and make Sindy and the new girl make love. Watch them train them and do have fun with them.

Let the girls become very friendly let them meet up together to dress and play. Encourage them to take on a lesbian style relationship. Do join in occasionally

Force them to kiss and play - make them dress and live out each others fantasies

Make sure they make love only using strapons they are lesbians and so you need to keep the illusion at all times.

They are your toys, playthings never let them forget that

Make sure you have every ounce of her body under your spell. Regularly test her. Spank her make sure she understands her position, but do this while she is dressed in her favourite clothing make sure she confuses sexual need with your control.

Demote her back to being your pet for a few days then punish her. Humiliate her constantly tell her she is not a man she can not please you and that you are looking for a real man to please you and fill you.

Let the girls play invite them to tell you and each other their deepest darkest secrets. Lisa I can tell you Sindy will have several fantasies most involving being used like a women and several others involving school girls, pony girls, harem slave etc. The most common for girls at Sindy's stage is the Secretary with a male master mostly around discipline, spanking and sucking cock. I am sure Sindy is blushing as you both read this.

Service maid and mistresses also form strong influences on these types of girl

They are desperate to experience real female friendship and some create elaborate virtual friends and histories they then communicate online about. The girl at school that dressed him and made him want to be a women or the college roommate that also dressed and they discovered their true selfs

If you are noticing a recurring theme I don't blame you. Sindy is simply desperate and has a huge sexual appetite most tgirls, cross dressers and sissies do. They need constant control and management but the benefits are wonderful.

You can dress up together, have a maid a plaything a toy and even another lover. Sindy want mind

Infact she craves it she wants it sooo much it is her deepest secret - look at her Lisa is she blushing, is she almost in tears?

What she wants is depicted in the image below she wants you to take a lover and for her to serve you both.

Even as David now he will suck your lovers cock as long as you are there the humiliation will drive him on will make him want to be shamed.

David, Sindy wants to be your lovers toy

She wants to be used press her on this how often has she masturbated alone bitting her bottom lip dressed as a slut imaging her asspussy is full of fat thick black cock.

That her hair is being pulled and her masters cock is pummelling her hole.

Ask her how often she dreams of sucking cock? How often has she dreamt of submitting to a man

not any man but your lover and have you watch your lover turn David into Sindy and completely destroy his manhood.

Ask her about his cum and how she dreams of being covered by him, licking it up tasting his manhood

Ask het to tell you about the dreams of sucking your lovers cock with you

Ask her it it is true and watch her shame turn her face red and her silence be evidence of her shame and truth.

Ask her to show you how she will beg for his cock. How she will be his pet his toy not yours not his wifes but your lovers.

Listen to her describe what she will do and how desperate she is to have it done to her watch her blush from excitement and sexual need. She will bite her bottom lip and let out a small purr you will know that look your a women you get the same look you will know she is truly Sindy when she has that look the look a women gets on heat when she knows she is going to get a fucking like no other - girls we all do it we cant help it - now you are all blushing as I am.....

You will be desperate to please him and dress for him no longer for yourself Lisa you will watch as your David turns into Sindy then into something else - many wives, girlfriends get a little possessive at this stage they feel that the tgirl / crossdressers owes them something and that they should be loyal to the wife but the master is now involved and he takes over his is in control of you both. Lisa darling let go and enjoy trust me...

Let him use Sindy and he will make use of you also please him and make Sindy please you.

Watch him take Sindy's cock in hand and watch how easily Sindy is controlled and how much she desires his cock

Play with Sindy enjoy your dreams and fantasies dress Sindy as you see fit

Let your lover your master take her away for the weekend for training and enjoy it when she returns listen to her tale as you drink wine and have her lick you out.

marvel at how many other girls were humiliated and in the ingenious and wonderful ways

Learn to enjoy these times of freedom dress and enjoy discover new friends and lovers. Explore your naughty side.

Ask Sindy to describe right now her three top fantasies - trust me she is sooo easy to manipulate as most cross dressers are. She will have been manipulated by some of the imagery and other questions she will tell you she would love to work for a master as a maid with other girls

Or a slave to a mistress, a pet used and abused, humiliated and teased constantly

and her most hidden most deepest of secrets she longs to be fucked long and hard by men

She wants a fat thick cock in her mouth

She wants to feel submissive and wanton

She longs to be a women touched, used controlled but most of all filled with a mans rod

Hair pulled tight as he forces his cock into your husband as David is pushed away literately by another mans cock - each thrust pushes David away and gives more room for Sindy - each thrust makes him more her....

Let Sindy enjoy the journey help her to discover her true self and then let her become the girl she dreams of being. Sindy may turn out to be elegant and sophisticated she may want lovers to be a reflection of what you wanted from David

She may be slutty and long for men to use her like a plaything, spanking her and humiliating her

She may long for female lovers, role playing with other cross dressers or tgirls

She may want to journey to become a shemale - tgirl. It can be so much fun being a tgirl - it can also be very lonely and scary but if you support her it can be so wonderful for you both

Just imagine the fun, the possibilities

She may want to become a full women enjoying the clothing, the feelings the experiences of women hood she may even take male lovers as a true women

She may take her new women hood further and become a true mistress herself...

Where ever she ends up I hope you both still love and support each other and most of all be safe

Girls lets help Lisa and David please comment please add to my thoughts and ideas.
Love you all.

XXXX

OMG Girls and I mean OMG

2011-08-11T23:26:00.002+01:00

This had me cumming in my panties all night

sweet little film

2011-08-05T08:13:00.001+01:00

A N E W _Erotic shortfilm from SBROKKED on Vimeo.

Images from Mr Blacks Academy

2011-08-02T08:13:00.000+01:00

Mr Black expects all his girls to be well attired, femm and above all carry themselves with elegance charm and an air of sophisticated aloofness.

Underwear must always match your outfit perfectly and never wear tights. Hold ups or Stockings.

Carry yourself well and move gracefully. He loves to hear the girls rushing around carrying out his orders the clicking of the girls heels in the courtyard reflects on how busy the academy is.

I adore looking very prim and proper and then being taken and turning into a whore - blush why does that resonate for so many tgirls - girls do let me know your thoughts

Some days I like to go a little flouncy and dress up from the safer secretarial outfits.

What would you wear for Mr Black respond in the comments area and link to your outfits

Dying to know what you girls would wear make sure you link to your undies too girls and Mr Black will select the best complete outfit presented.

This needs to include:

1. Underwear

2. Office Wear

3. Outer Wear

4. Shoes

5. Accessories

6. Makeup description or link

thank you ladies

Your 'O' Face

2011-08-02T07:55:00.000+01:00

Hi girls, I am going to write about a subject that is close to my heart today. Growing up I tended to have more female friends than male but in my late teens I started to 'hang out' with several guys they were all very macho.

In hindsight I think it was my last attempt at being normal - we would all congregate at Jame's house and watch videos, play video games - I recall one lazy Sunday at his house there were 5 of us we started playing a game on his playstation he then pulled out a porn video. They put it on and we watched it I remember it vividly it really had an effect on me The blonde girl was being taken from behind and the camera paned around so that we were looking at her face we could see the guy in the background slightly out of focus I sat in that room stock still the guys cheered and wooped I was like a rabbit caught in a cars headlight transfixed

Her face contorted and several hundred emotions flicked past in an instant - pain, lust, pleasure, extreme pleasure, satisfaction, pain, shame, lust and then finally she blushed as she let out a moan and her eyes rolled back she shuddered and purred as she came.

I wanted that so much I wanted to feel that to experience it to be her to have the guys fuck me use me like that to piston in and out of me to make me feel those things.

Roll forward a few years and embarrassingly I still do it to this day. I start to befriend a girl and then when I think I am close enough to ask her anything I blurt out my question...

What is it like to be fucked - deeply and hard - what do you feel, what is it like...

Normally we are both drunk and she laughs and mutters something sometimes they tell me they explain it with relish almost reliving the moment...

I have been told that the first sensations are one of fullness then a warmth sometimes pain but it goes quickly and pain then is replaced by pleasure a tightness and depending on the guys size both thickness and length there is a deep sensation which builds into a warm feeling then spreads into a glow. Some girls have told me at this point they tend to lose it and just go with the flow they start to purr or moan gently eyes normally closed they feel their bodies tense and relax and they want more they need more inside them they start to push back driving the guy deeper...

I wanted to share with you all several images that cover the emotional range I want to talk about and also to help any tgirls out there who need a better understanding of their 'O' face

Typical lust look - makes the guy feel wanted

building the pleasure biting the lower lip is also sexy a little bit is better than biting the whole lip

Pian pleasure combo ooh lucky girl - it is such a nice feeling to feel so full but it is also not nice when he pulls out a lot of girls tell me they whimper when a really big cock is pulled out the feeling of being empty is quite a shock after all the pleasure

Being taken in your bottom is an experience every girl should have it is really amazing but can be painful and do go slow ladies

The cross look giggle

Shock look one of my faves

I call this the howl as she is about to let out a very load moan and possibly a yelp.

The kitten she is sooo lucky I love purring when being taken

She is gone I love this sensation

Gasp

The lustful pain look

Pure pain

Let me know what your fave look is girls and what makes you go mmmmm giggle

I am sooo in love

2011-08-02T00:01:00.001+01:00

I soo want to be them.

Wow stylist pick and it works

2011-08-01T23:28:00.000+01:00

Ladies you have sooo got to try this http://www.stylistpick.com/

This is my perfect wardrobe love this so much.

The art of undressing

2011-07-28T08:38:00.000+01:00

Ladies sit down and pour your self a cup of coffee or wine depending on the time it is in your part of the world.

I have a very interesting post - I have been discussing this post with Sir (Mr Black) and several girlfriends and I am quite surprised by the various view points, understanding of the subject and general arguments we all had.

Undressing well. No girls not stripping or dancing around a pole but the art of undressing sensually and getting dressed in front of a partner everyday year in and year out without looking clumsy, oafish (come on girls admit it you know what I am talking about) and portraying that certain glamour and felinity.

Something that works well and always turns on a guy is contrast and a little bit of gypsy sluttery

dark stockings shiny leather heels and shocking pink or red lace thongs around the ankles keep everything else on and then simple lift one foot high and deliberately and gently kick away the panties.

Red shoes with black thongs also work doing this outside of the bedroom adds a level of naughtiness guys love. I did it once in a very quite shopping centre I went into the stairwell with the guy I was with and slipped out of my panties and let them slide down my leg I stepped forward out of them and kissed him turned around so my back was too him and then bent over at the waist to pick them up and I shuddered as his hands reached out to caress my ass.

We left the stairwell and headed towards the cinema and I handed him my panties as a little incentive. Blush wow it still makes me hot thinking about it.

Sandals work well with more grown up and less slutty undies

The key to taking of your knickers ladies is to bend at the waist and then bend your knees a little hands on each side flick your skirt up if you can if not then slide up the skirt a little and then put your knees together and in one motion slide them down.

Do not try to take them off let them fall to the floor and then step out of them.

When dressing or undressing always show your partner / lover a little glimpse of what he is about to enjoy or has enjoyed always leave them wanting more.

Bend at the waist - its naughty and much sexier then bending at the knees

Less is more... keep your clothes on ladies and expose yourself just enough for him to have a little fun. A quickie is soooo yummy I adore feeling his cum on my inner thigh...

Make sure you are always accessible

I know it is not that sexy but if you know you are going to be naughty believe me cotton panties are much better than lace and fell less horrid wet. You can always carry a spare pair ladies.

Have fun show off your undies let me imagine you... This is perhaps the most powerful arsenal in a women's armoury

If you have the luxury of a bed near be playful

I love lying on my front and popping my bum up and then lifting up my thong and moving it to the side

It is so naughty and it says take me without having to say a word - guys love this...

When taking off heels always point your toes down - it is far more elegant and sensual

Sometimes just a flash of leg in the right company exposes your femininity and fragility - just imagine those guys gang banging her what a treat

And sometimes being totally exposed while doing something a simple as drinking a cup of tea and chatting can be soo sensual rather and than sexual

remember girls respect your panties it is your ultimate weapon and the doorway to your power.

what is the difference between a tgirl and a boyish genetic girl

2011-07-28T07:26:00.000+01:00

For many years I was attracted to genetic girls with a boyish look - tom boys if you will. I know realise it was the guy look in a cute femm wrapper that had me excited, turned on perhaps even envious.

I just cant sleep at the moment and flicking through several magazines got me thinking about this idea. The imp pixie look that was back in for a short while reminded me of those girls from school - they were always slim pert very small breasts and slim hipped but cute and femm in a unconventional way

Tgirls strive to be as femm as possible and yet these girls somehow manage it while being boyish. Is this because they are actually girls?

Have we and by the royal we I mean tgirls missed something?

Is the cock between our legs stopping us going forward?

A girl can be boyish but can a women?

What if anything still excites me about these genetic girls who explore the male side?

Yes I still find these girls attractive - if they were wearing a strap on I would fall to my knees and pleasure them but somehow without one I adore their boyish-ness but it ends there I need a real cock in my mouth and between my legs - not a small sissy clit but a fat thick vein covered rod.

Lush big eyes and cute haircuts the order of the day - glasses help with that nerd look

Slender slender slender if you want to be a boy girl

I would adore it if she fucked me

But we end on tgirls why are we superior are we the next evolution the 3rd way?

I really don't know and surprisingly I don't care - I have been soooo enthralled by men lately that I am beginning to think I might be a straight women after all.

Sitting on the buss and watching the guys on the tube at my local coffee shop all I can see is guys.

What I think I really need is a tgirl girlfriend someone to share my changes, thinking and occasional sleep / sex buddy.

Then a genetic girl someone a little older someone with experience and who has a dom nature and then a boyfriend.

I do imagine genetic girls having cocks I guess all tgirls do. Why does it excite us?

Why is this creature so compelling

I would worship her

I wish that fat thing between her legs were real

She looks mean giggle I would love to be her pet - blush

OMG - is that perfection?

My local coffee shop is run by a group of Mediterranean guys, I think they might be italian and greek I am not sure. But I do like going in there for a coffee. They have never been horrid and they always seem to take that much more care of me - perhaps it is my imagination I mention this because like this post I find myself at odds with what I know I like and what I am actually reacting too.

OMG maybe I am growing up!

There is a new guy working there he does not speak much english, he cleans the tables - he is always smiling and nods to everyone and says hi in his funny mid med accent

Why is this odd well normally I would not have given him a second look and originally I did not but slowly I have been thinking of him - he is mid height stocky a bit over weight but looks very powerful not muscular but strong he looks like he has worked hard - Am I making any sense?

He shaves his head and has a little stubble and has these eyes they, well they sparkle I think he has caught me staring a few times and always smiles and nods politely I blush and try to hide inside my coffee cup.

I find myself imagining him taking me his arms are so thick his forearms look like steel girders. Pinning me down and howling like an animal as he pumps no thrusts no again these words don't explain the ferocity I am expecting from him - Jack hammers into me - I find myself blushing at home as I watch tv thinking about him partly from the shame of the strength of my desires and partly because I find myself getting excited, wet, horny and needing to well you can fill in the blanks

I also find myself wondering about Sir - Mr Black I would never do anything to upset him and would always ask his permission but somehow I don't want to make this fantasy real I want to imagine this guy this stocky thick set man as a toy another instrument of pleasure like my dildo or my new and luxuriant set of lingerie from Rigpy and Peller.

The perfect pair of breasts equals the perfect women

2011-07-26T17:38:00.000+01:00

If I start to blush it is because I am hugely embarrassed by what I am about to admit.

Like many of you I would sneak into my sisters room or even my mums and almost faint at the wonderful lace trimmed bra's some strapless some more supportive I did not understand the difference back then - As I grew older and discovered more about female clothing and styles. I began to read my sisters and mums magazines.

The highlight of my week was staying in on Saturday I would quickly rush around the house heart pumping through fear of discovery and excitement for what was to become my transformation into Tabby. Oh my I really am blushing. I used to call myself Lisa back then. I would rush around and dress my sisters thong and matching bra my mothers old tennis skirt (she kept it as an incentive to lose to weight and get back into it - she never did) and my sisters cropped and tailored blouse I would then rush back to my room and slip on my suspender belt hidden deep in my room and stockings and then slip into my sisters 4 inch heels.

A little bit of red lippy and a spray of my sisters perfume and I would calm myself down and strut along the corridor and down the stairs I would then sit on the sofa and flick through Cosmo and Red and then tidy the room a little. Finally my lust, desire, needs call them what you will, would take a hold of me and I would rush to my room to play with myself. I would kneel down and reach into my thong and play with myself. I would find myself leaning on my bed my bra stuffed with socks would be pressed against my chest and my one hand pulling and flicking my sissy clit while the other would flick up the back of my skirt and a searching probing finger would desperately fuck my little hole.

I remember thinking as I shook with delight and pleasure and my tiny little sissy clit would throb one two three little ropes of cum onto my thigh or hand - that breasts were the ultimate female body part as I pushed myself deeper into my mattress as my probing finger would send shudders through me I would imagine large round fleshy breasts nipples erect and sensitive rubbing on the bed sheet cool and sensual adding to my sheer excitement I would literally squeal - blushing like mad now. For a long time I imagined myself with huge breasts and longed for this I even purchased bras with huge cup sizes and one year I managed to save some money and purchased an awful pair of E size breast forms.

Imagine the years rolling by my understanding of what it means to be a women exceeds that of dressing and breasts size - I start to take hormones my tastes change I change...

For many guys and tgirls alike this is the ultimate female form curvy large breasts bubbly girly and pretty - I hate breasts like these - perhaps hate is too strong I just could not imagine having to carry them around worst of all they limit the type of underwear you can wear the dresses, biniki's etc.

This shape and size is far better it also suits her frame and shape.

Again slightly too big

Just the right size but not pert enough and the other girls are far too small

Perfect size and pertness and shape.

Having said all that there is one thing I still do envy girls with cleavage

Well ladies what are you big - small pert or huge and saggy do tell and why....

OMG

2011-07-17T22:06:00.000+01:00

LEA from les JandJ - Motion Photographers on Vimeo.

My Assignment - The Perfect BJ Part 1

2011-07-11T08:05:00.000+01:00

What is the perfect technique for a blow job does it exist and if so can a tgirl administer it? Ok I guess I need to be pretty open about all of this ladies as Mr Black is watching and I am fast approaching my end of July live test.

I have spoken to 6 male friends (both straight and gay), 3 tgirl friends and only 1 genetic girl (2 if you include my sister) I know this is not going to be solved in one day and I know I am going to have to explore several facets of my personality that I have kept locked away. Yes I have given several blow jobs but this task this test is different Mr Black rewards femininity he expects his girls to be....girls he wants total and utter submission and most of all he wants to see real emotion. Something I think we tgirls lack. Let me explain we build in our minds the perfect fantasies that we hold so close to our hearts and yet when we explore them they fall apart like a house of cards.

I wanted to start with my feelings and thoughts on the perfect blow job (does anyone else hate that phrase?) I really hate it it just feels clunky does that even make any sense? I will then explore what I have been told and then refer back to my personal experiences and with your help perhaps I might even impress Sir.

I see cocks like weapons a mans tool his spear and I have learnt that to please a man you must admire his manhood, cock, tool call it what ever you like but admire it, kiss it and tell him it is huge and you are not able to take it all. One thing I have found really makes a guys happy, read happy to mean hard is to look at his cock, lick it, kiss it and generally play with it for a while. Almost like a kitten does with a ball. Guys love it adore it when you fall in love with their cock. When doing this hold it tightly, stroke it and purrr in a feline satisfied way. He will ask what are you doing and reply giggling and blushing very coyly that you are getting to know him (meaning his cock) and that you just can not believe how hard it is. He might laugh and let you carry on or he might feel his confidence grow and grab a handful of your hair and start to face fuck you. Which ever he chooses you have pleased him and we are moving in the right direction.

Hold your mans cock look at it explore it taste it. Get to know what he likes which parts tickle him which parts make him moan and which parts to avoid.

Teasing a guy. Guys love bj's as demoed here by our lovely Rosie you can take pretty much any action and imply sucking a cock. Guys love this and you need to show your man that you love the idea of his cock in your mouth - this will make him want you more and believe me when I say this - you can really control a guy just with a little bit of clever teasing. But do be careful not to go too far and make it clumsy and emotionless.

The perfect position many pairs of stockings and tights have been ruined in this way but it confirms your lower position and gives him control - this keeps him happy and hard.

I have found that a little reluctance goes a long way the guy forcing you down he loves this and your role is to push back let him force his hand onto the back of your head and push harder. When you eventually take him into your mouth never show any reluctance enjoy him and let him use you.

If you are lucky enough to have a cock with a girlfriend or your genetic girl partner then share the work lick his balls and hold onto his cock. Guys love this idea

Let him take control of your head and let him guide you.

Something that sends guys wild is to pretend your a virgin and let your girl friend help you take his cock mark the occasion with a picture - it is sooo rare and wonderful a treat

The sticky subject ;-) of cum learn to love it enjoy it you have no real choice. So girls keep tasting your own and keep trying to learn to deal with the sensations and feelings - try to control your gag reflex.

Barbour and Fred Perry

2011-06-28T20:02:00.002+01:00

I love love love adore Barbour and Fred Perry

Images sent in

2011-06-28T07:49:00.000+01:00

My inbox is overflowing with images you sexy gorgeous gals have sent in - I have selected several from various different emails - girls you know who sent what so thank you.

I love this image she is totally his to use - she has lost all her will power her eyes are showing total

submission. This is sexy and I sooo long to be sir pet again.

Some guys just like to cum. Cum on stockings can be sooo sexy especially if you make the little faggot lick it off. Giggle

I adore two women together like this I imagine the shorter girl is a sub to the taller and plus it is Natalie so win win giggle.

I adore this image it is soo womenly to be able to be exposed so much and yet not show a thing very sexy

A big fat cigar so sexy powerful women I am trying to learn to be assertive Sir lets me take control of the other girls from time to time. A role I enjoy but am not a natural at it.

Such an amazing image I love her look she wants to fuck her wants to hurt her so sensual so powerful

I adore petgirls and love playing with sirs pony girls and cats those girls are sooo funny they can be very very naughty.

Cute wild kitten

On show - I love adore get soo turned on when a girl lets herself go totally into being a pet she is totally in the now she is an animal she is his pet. I love her look and her tongue hanging out sooo perfect so submissive. I wish I had a genetic girl as a pet.

Most sensitive part

2011-06-28T07:25:00.000+01:00

I find it amazing how little things remind you of thoughts, feelings, sounds and smells you had as a child.

Everytime I hear an icecream van I think of summer at home playing in the garden as an 8 year old with my dolls house. While I was writing the previous posts just blowing on my nipples can make them erect they are sooo sensitive and joking aside girls is it normal? I just cant touch them at the moment without feeling sore (if I touch them a little too hard) or sensual if it is a light touch or brush.

I giggled as I recalled my school days - I was about 15 and I remember some girls had really developed

breasts and I was so envious I wanted breasts I wanted that shape. I remember standing at the bus stop alone in my thoughts watching several girls as we all waited for the bus to take us home.

I watched in fascination as her nipples poked through her bra, shirt fabric and school jumper - I wanted that and I remember going home and pinching my nipples in front of the mirror in my room trying to make them larger.

I still love it when my nipples poke through my clothes. I know some girls get embarrassed but I think it is femm and sexy

Very cute set - but too grungy for me

Natalie has amazing set

I cant do this at the moment without moaning is this normal - girls please do advise how they make you feel

I love fabric rubbing them gently

Sooo cute

Does a piercing make them more sensative? I am not sure I could cope

Girls opinions pls...

Sometimes I am charged full of sensitivity

2011-06-28T07:03:00.000+01:00

As you all know I adore dressing up. I love being the best dressed and most over dressed girl in the room. I love the feeling of tightness the pull of my bra strap the tug of my suspender strap as it pulls on my stocking tops as I move elegantly across the room.

Sometimes and I am not sure why perhaps its the hormones, perhaps women feel like this all the time and I am just discovering it or simply it might be my male side feeling horny which is expressed as sensitivity in my female side.

I could not sleep last night I was alive with feeling my babydoll bodice felt tight and sensual against my skin. Where the babydoll meets my waist it flairs out in a micro skirt as i lay in bed the feeling of the lace skirt touching my thigh tops sent shivers of pleasure along my spin - I actually moaned as my feather quilt brushed across my nipples. I found myself slowly moving my hips and trying to rub my sissy clit against the fabric of my matching lace thong. I was a small ball of sensitive nerve endings each touch, feel, movement made me want more. I just could not sleep. I found myself rubbing the front of my knickers and my sissy clit and gently pulling at my thong so that the material would gently rub between my cheeks and on the sensitive area around my sissypussy....

I had to get up I had to I just did not want to cum I just had to do something else...Coffee early morning TV....Images of sensually dressed women silk cool and smooth caressing my nipples...

The tightness of a little black dress - his strong hand on my breasts - his breath on my neck...

Showing him a glimpse of stocking top letting him touch my skin between my panties and the top of my stockings purring my need for him inside me

I want his cock in my mouth while I hold a glass of wine perhaps pre dinner drinks at his home while we wait for a cab

Both of us dressed well I want him to ravage me to pull up my elegant gown and pull aside my knickers and plunge into me

To strip back to my heels and fuck me

We both dress again and I purrr at him like a whore he bends me over and fucks me with a dildo I scream I need his cock again I want to feel fucked I want to feel full

The cab comes and goes we lie in bed naked his huge tool pressed between my breasts I gasp at its weight and thickness I know it will hurt and I will be walking funny for days but I want it in me deep in me it is the only way to stop the sensitivity the only thing that can make me feel normal to let me sleep to let each part of my body rest

Nipple piercing

2011-06-27T08:14:00.000+01:00

I was not convinced and decided against getting my nipple's pierced. But I saw this and now I soooo want to be able to wear an outfit like that.

Yeahhh

2011-06-27T08:12:00.001+01:00

Hi everyone
What do you think of my new blog and layout? I love it any thoughts?
Thank you sir xxx

A Post by Mr Black

2011-06-24T12:10:00.000+01:00

Tabitha can be such a wayward gurl at times, but I do enjoy indulging her little whims on occasion. She asked me if I would bring the full flow of my creative energies to bear on her little blog. Which I have now enjoyed doing. Do drop me a line and let me know what you think.

I do think it is much more elegant and stylish, and appropriate for you

Enjoy it Miss Jones - Mr Hugo Black - x

Sometimes the man in me comes out but he does run away quickly

2011-06-23T08:33:00.000+01:00

You all know I love everything femm. But every now and then strange things happen to me maybe its the hormones, maybe its a comment or a visual memory from the past - yes these times are very infrequent but they do happen. I wanted to share something with you all and find out if this happens to you. I grew reading comic books and wishing I had powers I wanted more than anything to be able to have the power to transform.

I dreamed of being the Natalie she was the most popular girl in school and even then she knew her power as a women. For more years than I can remember my transformation dreams would take me over at night and I would be flung into a world of costumes and fantasy.

What triggered the memory well I went to see The Green Lantern one of my most fave comic books. I loved the idea he could create anything it appealed to me. I Have never been to the cinema on my own. I dressed in jeans and a tshirt and one of my cute cropped leather jackets and boots. I purchased my ticket bottle of water and a small sweet popcorn and sat watching the trailers

The geeks started to come in some geeks even have girlfriends now. I sat watching the film. This is not a film review site but girls its ok your guy will love it.

As I walked back home and passed several clothing shops it struck me that women wear costumes all the time and transform themselves every day - make up, glam up, glam down etc

Sexy, frilly and ever so cute undies

the girl you bring home to meet mum and dad etc

our costumes are now so much part of womanhood is that wrong? I wont be complaining as the costumes are what got me here in the first place

Submissives

Doms

Cute girlfriends

Brides

All a part of the costume women wear. So I started to think like that skinny, awkward lonely boy again what power would I have? Would I still dream of transformation? Would I still want to be who I am today if that geeky skinny boy knew the pain and emotional wreck he- she would become?

I thought long and hard about what made me dress first - I know its the clothes that is what attracted me to womenhood then something changed, something clicked and Tabby was born. Would the clothes make the women! Would they give me power would I adore being in situations like a women would?

I turned the last corner and was almost home, my mind wandered and I began to think what would it be like if I could actually truly and fully transform into a women? Would I ever be me again or would I stay perfect and female? Would I experiment small breasts large breasts think curvy older younger

Ofcourse I would so would you all I giggled almost annoyed with myself - I blushed and took the keys out of my handbag and entered my home.

I closed the door and kicked off my boots and then put on the kettle and made myself a coffee. I took out a piece of paper and started to write things down. Things that I could remember that made me tabby

I had many bridal fantasies - dressing and sucking a huge cock on my wedding day with my bridesmaids around me all joining in

Totally embarrassed now but I wanted to be Kim Possible - if you are laughing at me I don't blame you but please please understand - she was so powerful so strong but femm and sexy - OMG I am sooo blushing

I would dream of being a college girl and taking on the football team

Embarrassed moment number 2 I would sit on the loo to pee and have done so for many years and would always keep my knees together I felt so femm doing this

I would dream of dressing up and modelling

I wanted to be the centred of attention - just like Natalie was at school.

I wanted Natalie to want me - some nights I was a man fucking her and others we were lesbian lovers

I wanted to please men but felt huge shame about it - blushing like mad now - girls does this make sense to you?

I wanted to experience sex as a women to be really fucked really and truly man handled

I would imagine being on star trek and being turned into a women by an alien experiment

I wanted to be wonder women

The white queen

I even managed to get a super girl costume sneaked into my home many years ago and would dress as her and sit in my room posing

I adored dressing Playboy bunny girl anything femm

I saved up for years to buy a Leia costume but never managed too

Slowly I turned to more tangible things heels I adore them I don't have a pair of shoes (unless you include trainers) that have less than a 4 inch heel

When I started to take hormones I started to find cocks attractive I always did but felt less humiliated by the fact - does that even make sense?

I would dream of being a servant to a powerful man

Or a slutty girl at parties

Recently I have been feeling more empowered as a women and less an object

I somehow have been developing into a full women not only in body but in mind atleast it feels that way

But every now and then I just blush and think of cock.

Sucking it on my knees

Worshipping it

Taking him into my mouth and moaning

Then I blush and start to think more elegant thoughts - beautiful boudoirs

Elegant dinners

Stunning heels

Amazing hotels - holidays

Fashion

womenhood and all the trinkets associated with it

Girlfriends

Strong men

Dates

Hotel room romps

Cute guys with hard cocks

Being taken

His cum

I love cum - blushing like a whore now - do whores blush ;-)

I would use his cream in coffee I just love the taste girls

I want what she has. We all know she has just had the best seeing to in her life and she just exudes sexual confidence, elegance and is perhaps the most perfect nymphet.

I want to be the cute girl in Paris - posing on my balcony

and being ravaged at night

I want an elegant man, to make love to me

I would be perfect for him - dressing in anyway he wanted I would give myself to him

Become his collared pet

His plaything

I would try so hard to be proper and prim and prissy

But I would beg him to fuck me rape me use me

to abuse me at his pleasure

I would dress in the most sensual lingerie

Do anything he asks of me with others

As I scribbled and drank my coffee I rubbed my sissy clit. I stopped finally something had clicked. I was doing all these things telling myself I would please a man do this with a man only because it was turning me on - I was just that little boy again just a little more femm and a little more experienced. Nothing has changed I still am defining myself by others metrics and by my sexual needs.

I stopped stood up and went to my room took off all my clothes and wiped my face clean of what little makeup I had on and stood naked infront of my mirror...

Ok what do I like my bum is cute and pert, my breasts yes they are small but they are breasts, arms slender hate my thighs tummy is nice and flat but girly hate my hips and then my eyes settled on my tiny penis and I started to cry.

I started to stroke it and then pump it as hard as I could the hormones don't help and sometimes if I want to use my cock I have to stop taking the hormones for a week or so. I pumped my tiny hardish cock I giggled through the tears as the red fingernails seemed alien wrapped around the cock

I just stood there wanking like a man I grunted and then came on my hand and the floor not much I stopped crying my cheeks burning red with shame as I licked the cum from my hand and tried to hide my cock and balls by crossing my legs...

I fell into bed trying not to scream

I lay there for what felt like hours and then I said out loud my male name I had not said it in at least a year. I closed my eyes and wept.

I want...

2011-06-20T22:01:00.000+01:00

I want you to notice me - I walk past your game everyday on my way to lunch. I make sure my walk and my clothes sign post me to you and your friends...

I want to meet you one evening in a local bar - I play hard to get

We go out and end up at your place I am on my knees

you lead me upstairs

I want to feel you pull at my lace underthings I want to feel your cocks head inbetween my cheeks

I want to lower myself onto you - I want to slide down your pole and feel full again

OMG wet knickers part 3

2011-06-20T21:50:00.001+01:00

girls I am amazed I soooo am turned on this evening this is amazing

http://xhamster.com/movies/710381/top_dom_shemale_teaching_a_lesson_to_a_couple..._enjoy.html

thank you sir

2011-06-20T21:09:00.001+01:00

Blushing

http://theworldofhugoblack.blogspot.com/2011/06/being-fem.html

He does care

New photoshoot

2011-06-20T21:02:00.000+01:00

Hi Girls

Most of us (both tgirl and genetic girl) dream of being models. To strut our stuff and be utterly fussed over to look stunning and have men desire you and women wish they were you.

I would sooo love to live that life - getting paid to put clothes on and wear to much make up. Me me me please. Giggle. Yes I can hear all those real models telling us how it is not glam and it really is hard work. Is it harder than coal mining no is it harder than working in a bank perhaps it is but soooo much less soul destroying.

I had such a lovely time on this shoot. I wanted to share my day with you all as it was a bit of a first. I have modelled before but never with other girls and never with other genetic girls.

I loved the process and I must thank my friend who is an amazing photographer and bless him an admirer of tgirls. He was shooting some new girls and asked me to join in. Thank you Sarah your makeup is amazing / Zoe I adore the outfit you chose for me (sorry my feet were too big for the shoes you had with you. I have asked the other girls if I can post their images but they have not got back to me once they have and if they let me I will post them.

I wish my breasts filled out the dress a little better and my fat thighs were a little more slender. I adore my arms and pose - blushing like mad.

Heels

2011-06-15T08:14:00.000+01:00

Girls what is the furthest you have ever walked in heels that are 5 inch plus. I have managed about a mile when shopping with friends.

I was in Covent Garden yesterday and was watching the world running to and from various meetings, appointments secret liaisons - giggle when 3 women walked past they were amazingly dressed and wore heels that were atleast 5 inches perhaps even 6 and they walked like they were dancing their hips swayed and they looked stunning they were late as they seemed to be hurrying but their heels could have been flats they just glided past - Every guy watched them and they knew it.

I was stunned by it I really was I got home and tried to emulate their walk. One of the most sensual things I have ever seen.

I wish I was brave enough to have taken a picture.

Confidence

2011-06-08T07:13:00.000+01:00

Why are some girls able to wander around almost completely in the nude and other girls of equal beauty unable too?

Can a women have too much confidence? Yesterday I was sitting in my fave Shoreditch coffee house watching the world roll by and the most average looking women entered the café and queued for her coffee but she really did light up the room. A phrase often used but rarely lived up to. This wonderful creature simply oozed confidence. It some how transformed her she was not brash or loud simply well dressed, polite and deliberate in her actions perhaps it was a show but OMG girls did it work!

That got me thinking as everything seems to these days what is female confidence - where does the

lad-ette live in the spectrum and can a tgirl be confident?

Would I sunbath topless - yes I have done so but I am not sure I would do so openly?

I really admire this women - but is her confidence derived from her external beauty or an inner self belief?

For me the better dressed I am the more femm I feel which makes me feel more confident does this resonate with you all?

interesting

2011-06-08T06:52:00.001+01:00

Love the outfit

OMG - I have just wet my knickers part 2 - giggle

2011-06-07T22:41:00.000+01:00

Woman from redkedscom on Vimeo.

I soooo want to be any one of these girls

Blogs I like

2011-06-07T18:56:00.000+01:00

I do like this blog girls http://www.adaisychaindream.blogspot.com/

My Fave new shop

2011-06-07T08:19:00.000+01:00

Hi girls this site has to be one of your stops on your shopping days

http://www.shopnastygal.com

Some amazing outfits and items - must have for summer:

http://www.shopnastygal.com/products/new/clothing/bottoms/Bimbo-Cutoff-Shorts.html

http://www.shopnastygal.com/products/new/clothing/bottoms/Riptide-Leather-Shorts-.html

http://www.shopnastygal.com/products/new/clothing/dresses/Draped-Across-Dress-%252d-Cream.html

http://www.shopnastygal.com/products/new/clothing/dresses/Asymmetric-Cutout-Dress-%252d-Mocha.html

Women that inspire me

2011-06-06T08:07:00.000+01:00

Most of the images below are from a blog called http://www.thesartorialist.blogspot.com/

I love his work he takes pictures of women from across the globe usually from a fashion perspective.

But each subject, each shot shows the persons inner power wether it is confidence or innocence he manages to capture it.

The following images are some of my faves...

I love her strength and confidence - I wonder what she is smiling at I would die to have her confidence and will power you can see it all over her. Wonderful example of powerful yet feminine women.

Sexy sassy and oh my she places one foot in front of the other I soooo love it when a women walks like that. Adore her haircut

Cute, adorable and as hot as they come tell me girls is there anyone out there who does not want to be her?

Elegant, graceful and sensual is there anymore to say? Perhaps divine.

Sooo fashionable so much confidence so much attitude I bet her pussy bites - giggle

Another aspect of womenhood I find fascinating - the softer women the women that needs a man to protect her. It must feel so yummy to feel that everything is taken care of and all you need do is look pretty and feline

Rosie she's back I do adore this little nymph - a playful pic. She is stylish, sexy, sensual, naughty and has attitude by the lorry load. This girl is totally and utterly divine little English rose.

Why do I find these women inspiring....

Well...I find women / girls who have attitude and are dom with women but are submissive to guys, are very femm and feline, can be sensual and a little bit snooty but are sooo naughty soo inspiring - I guess becuase I sooo want to be that girl.

How about you. Post you comments with links to the women you find inspiring I am dying to know what you all think.

I love big butts...

2011-06-06T00:36:00.000+01:00

Ok I don't but I do love pert butts.

I was sent this graphic and it got me thinking. I do love my bottom, tush ass, butt, etc...

It is the best thing about me a combination of hormones, yoga, reebok step and walking in heels all the time has really helped shape and tone my backside. It is the most femm thing about me.

Oh by the way girls one of the pics below is a shot of my ass! The first correct answer will win a pair of my dirty knickers giggle.

So I decided to take a few pics and found some amazing buns for you all to blush at.

Sheer perfection rounded pert and femm the curve of her back the thong and how the materiel perfectly rests between her cheeks.

I love wider garter belts they look stunning and bows on the back look like the bottom is a gift.

The perfect tear drop bottom

A little manly but perfectly formed

I do love an athletic pert butt - blushing

Almost perfect

I adore this image I love the way she is bending and sliding her knickers down a little wiggle to help

Two cute square bums

Almost to good to be real

Shall I get a tramp stamp girls - let me know

Utterly amazing. Her curves the dimples the narrow waist sheer feline beauty

What ever is she hiding giggle

Oh I sooo want a pair of those shorts

tight buns not amazingly femm in shape but ever so pert

Love the leggings

Like tying up a present

Love the bow

OMG that is what I call iron grip

Stunning

Simply stunning

2011-06-06T00:07:00.000+01:00

Daisy Lowe, she is stunning I adore her outfits and love the way she moves.

Daisy Lowe for UK esquire HD from Greg Williams on Vimeo.

Rosie Hungtington Whiteley, simply amazing, I adore her outfit and then the clip where she stretches her knickers across her bottom and positions them perfectly. The trench coat and underwear reminds me of my little surprise present to Sir. Her lips are so plush, I love the little heart tattoo on her wrist, the way she checks herself in the mirror. Her lap dance is sublime.

Agent Provocateur - "Love Me Tender" in HD from Greg Williams on Vimeo.

Eugenia, stunning

Eugenia Diordiychuk, Morning from Eugenia Diordiychuk on Vimeo.

OMG - I have just wet my knickers

2011-06-02T19:35:00.001+01:00

Complicated Universal Cum - I can hardly wait from Fake Diamond Records on Vimeo.

Amazing...

2011-06-02T16:25:00.000+01:00

I really do wonder what it would be like to be a lesbian. I really thought I was going to be but the more hormones I take the more I explore women hood the more I want cock. Any girls out there what to share any insights?

Just imagine

2011-06-02T16:03:00.000+01:00

Just imagine...close your eyes and just imagine...

your little secret is safe you and I are the only people in the world that know about your little kink.

You love to go away on business trips because you get to play. When your partner is away your heart beats faster, you just can not wait to dress.

You bought her that stunning baby doll she thanked you and told her friends how wonderful your taste is, how much time you spent researching the perfect purchase for her but we really know why don't we darling. Is your little sissy clit warming up is it twitching?

Your dressed now. You check quickly in the mirror making sure you look perfect, you giggle and pose like a girl but you move away quickly you don't want to spoil the illusion your mask is so fragile and it can easily be spoilt. Your excited now you try to avoid touching your little sissy clit because the moment you do you cum and you want this to last as long as possible. You decide to do a little bit of the house work and you sashay around cleaning. You convince yourself this time it will be different this time you will stay dressed all day even after you give in to your needs to be milked. You finish the bedroom and you move onto the bathroom and you giggle as your heels click clack on the tiles - thats the last straw you need to cum you glide back to your bedroom and pull up your skirt and take your tiny sissy clit into your hand and pump at it like a piston you gasp as the feelings rush around you.

Your spare hand pinching your engorged nipple and then sliding down to your ass pussy you push in a finger then a second finger you moan out loud the sound feels like it does not belong to you. You gasp and tense your thighs and lick your lips you try to create as feminine sound as you can and lust fills your eyes. You moan once twice and then it happens your little clit spits out tiny ropes of cum on your shoes, hand and on the sheets. Your lust is still there and you quickly lick it up before the shame sets in...

You blush as your desire dies down leaving you your shame to deal with. Some of you start to cry at this point don't you my sweets your shame the taste of cum in your mouth sitting with your skirt up around your waist and your knickers sodden with your cum around your ankles...The rest of you change as quickly as possible hiding your shame...

But just imagine that this time as you cum time freezes and images flash through your mind...images of perfect women each women is presented to you and you have to decide which one you prefer - you know somehow that when your selection is made you will become her for 1 week...

What do you do you accept or run and hide? You stay still you lick your lips which seem ever so dry and you swallow you taste the cum again and you blush your in action starts the process and the first girl a perfect blonde 20 something is projected into your mind

You almost agree but something is not perfect something makes you reject her...her hair is perfect her breasts pert she is divine but she is wrong for you and the image fades away to be replaced with a stunning brunette her body is perfection hard pert and her mound looks astounding but she is a thirty something and you had hoped wished for some one younger...

The next goddess is an olive skinned beauty her ample breasts and amazing shape is truly stunning but you know she is not right for you your feline instincts tell you to go on.

Brunette again but no you tear yourself away from nodding she is stunning but you want something else something real something you long for deep inside something you can not put your finger on

The next girl is perfect but you wanted bigger breasts at least c cup so you move on you notice briefly that you are actually inhabiting these girls somehow you are allowed to feel as they feel and to instantly understand what it means to be them...

The next girl you become is as stunning as the girls previously she is desire in human form she is utter perfection and you realise you just can not be her she is too much for you so you move on.

too old you feel

to young but the taste of youth leaves you breathless

Then you gasp finally she is you and you are her. Her body is perfection her attitude age all ring true with you and you relax into her....

giggling you cover your breasts and take another drink from the bottle...someone calls Amy and you turn and smile.....

thoughts girls comments please...

Nipple ring

2011-06-02T13:57:00.000+01:00

girls have any of you had your nipple pierced - I sooo want to but I am sooo scared.

A question

2011-06-01T21:17:00.000+01:00

Panty Slave asked the above. Well Miss Slave I am Mr Blacks Personal Assistant. My role is complex comprehensive and very time consuming.

May I also add I am rather excellent at it. Does that answer your question?

Festival time

2011-06-01T20:07:00.000+01:00

I love love love festivals. Girls it really is a place you can be yourself and shine.

So I decided to put together a little list of great festival must haves:

Cute crown head band

If you must do wellies they must be hunters or cath kidson

Adore this underwear set by D&G if it is really hot what a great way to keep cool Giggle!

D&G Broderie Anglaise Skirted Briefs

Perfect outfit love the leopard print jacket

Another fave outfit

This is sooo cute my total fave

Cute sets to keep the guys hot

This is sooo on my shopping list stunning shorts and bra set by Made by Niki

If its cold then this stunning outfit soooo works

What if I can not afford a ticket after I have purchased these outfits Tabby I hear you all ask well darlings I also found this and entered myself giggle click here http://www.facebook.com/alprosoya?sk=app_202533819784923

Such a sweet game

2011-06-01T10:56:00.001+01:00

I really love this game I keep playing it. It's so girly and fun. I hope they do a beach version. If you want to play or vote for my garden click here http://apps.facebook.com/nvgardenstogo/?ref=bookmarks

more office sex

2011-05-31T06:53:00.001+01:00

I sooo would

2011-05-31T06:47:00.000+01:00

I love the idea of offices all over the world full of girls PA's, bosses and secretaries making love. I sooo would.

Getting a few things off my chest

2011-05-31T00:46:00.000+01:00

If there are any girls out there with tips, tricks ideas on what makes a good blow job let me know.

I love this image I sooo want to be her

I love the idea of a huge cock impossible to swallow with gentle pressure on the back of my head

I love the idea of being fed a cock

I adore a real mans cock why is it soo sensual and draws me in - girls do you all feel like that or just us sissy tgirls? I love the idea of a cock being erect for me that slightly manly smell the warmth the veins soo intoxicating

I want to hold a fat heavy cock and stroke it

A really powerful man strong thighs are so important - girls any thoughts

My second love - shoes and pencil skirts - girls what do you love / desire most

I think I may have just had my first real orgasm giggle

I sooo want to be one of these girls - what about you my darling readers what is inside your pretty heads what do you long to be

So need to be prim and proper - elegant girl about town

I want to feel submissive in the company of men

I want to go to sleep each night satisfied and needed

Girls I am dying to hear from you all share your thoughts...

being taught a lesson

2011-05-30T12:32:00.000+01:00

I posted several comments regarding femininity and was firmly put in my place by Jessie - I hope she does not mind me addressing her by her first name.

Her comment to my post was:

I usually like your posts, but not today.
Part of the journey in accepting who YOU really are, is to come to the acceptance that EVERYONE has the same right to explore whoever they might choose to be. It doesn't matter if it is a genetic man who understands he is really a she inside, or a genetic girl who decides she wishes to dress or act as she sees fit on any given day.

I truly am sorry that you are mistreated by others... But perhaps one of the reasons you are not being treated so well in this world is because you are bringing it upon yourself with destructive thoughts?

Put simply I have been the very thing I have done to me - I should know better and I thank Jessie for her honesty and her bravery to comment, but most of all I thank her for reminding me we are all valid.

So as a way of an apology and hoping to mend bridges I retract the post and offer Jessie and any others who were upset flowers and chocolates